So lately I've been stressed out quiet a bit. I think it's because there have been a few stressful situations in my life recently. Tim's parents and his grandma were coming to visit so I was just convinced that I HAD to paint my kitchen and hallway before they got here. I started 5 days before they were supposed to arrive....So having a definite deadline like that stressed me out.
Then they were here, and I don't want anyone to take this the wrong way, but it was stressful! I love Tim's family, but we have such a small house that it's hard for me to relax when there are more than like 3 people in it! I've decided that I need to learn to just take a deep breath when things are stressful and I can't fix it. There is nothing that I can do about it so I just need to learn to deal :)
I have been stressed about my weight (which is nothing new) but I am still working on loving myself.
Oh and I have a two year old, if that's not stressful I don't know what is!
So with that being said, without all the stress I'm actually happy. I'm happy for the first time in a while. It may sound weird because there are so many stressful things in my life now. But I am honesty happy!
I'm happy and I don't know how to explain it.
I think part of it is because I've noticed a change in Tim. He seems less stressed, less crabby, more at peace. Him being less stressed makes me less stressed :)
I think another part of it is that I finally got out of all of that drama with those two silly girls. My friendships with my other friends are better because of it, and I'm a better person because of it! Drama makes me a crabby, uptight, angry, stressed person. And now I have no drama!!!
Kelci and I are closer now then ever and Falesha and my friendship grows every day!! I love those two girls like my sisters.
I'm also Happy because Elliot is starting to say more words! Like "lay down" and "love you" and "go home!" he's so smart and it just amazes me every day!
I've been working the coffee cabin for my mom a few afternoons a week and I really enjoy it! It gives me a break from my "terrible two" and gives her a break from the coffee shop!
I've also taken up crocheting, which Tim's 91 year old grandmother taught me during their visit :) It relaxes me and gives me something to do when I'm at the cabin!
So that's it, I'm happy!
