Torn at the Rolls

I'm kinda stuck in a place right now that is not uncommon among those my age that have had a baby.

I'm having a hard time decided what I want to do. One day I'm telling myself that I'm beautiful even though I'm over weight. I'm telling my self to just embrace my current size and instead of being upset by the clothes in my closet that don't fit, I should just get some that make me comfortable.

The next day I'm telling myself that I should start dieting.

Lasagna one day, salad the next.

I'm being torn at my fat rolls!

Winter is coming which makes me worry that if I start going for evening runs it wont last long due to cold weather. I'd love to get up and take a jog in the morning but Tim leaves for work so early that I can't just leave the house since Ell is still sleeping. I love going to the gym but I'm kinda broke (thumbs down!) and my gym buddies have left town. My sister is going to college in Powell now and my cousin Sam for one, pregnant, and for two lives in Laramie! I'm just at a loss. Elliot screams and screams when I take him to the Rec Center day care and makes it so I'm just worried about him the whole time. And now since my sisters left for college my mom has been running the coffee cabin so she can't keep an eye on him for an hour so I can go to Zumba.

I need help. Someone to go to the gym with, or to watch Ell so I can go to the gym. Someone to motivate without being mean! I need pushed, I need someone to say "Hey Kait, you have a pretty face but your body is going to waste! Time to put down that brownie and pick up an apple, Pal!"

I think I might as Tim if he'll get me another gym membership and perhaps a new pair of shoes...my Nike's are worn out. I'm thinking maybe a pair of those Vibram Five Finger shoes...I think they would do wonders for my bad knees!

So now the question: Is anyone out there willing to be my gym buddy and say "STOP EATING FATTY!" and someone who would be willing to watch my kid for an hour or two? Also, Is there anyone who has some great weight loss tips and or workouts that really work out lol?

HELP THE FATTY FEEL PRETTY AGAIN!!!

The size I'm hoping to get down to again! Size 7 135 lbs.



This is what I DO NOT WANT TO BE ANYMORE!!! Size 13 175 lbs.

Growing Up

So last night I was watching the Emmy's and I decided that there are a few ways you can tell that you're growing up. I'll start with number 1

#1: Your taste in hot men changes from Taylor Lautner (circa 2009) to Mr. Big aka John James Preston

#2: You get curtains for your birthday.

#3: You stop asking for Hastings gift cards and start asking for Home Depot gift cards.

#4: You need two cups of coffee in the morning before you can even think about starting something important.

#5: You don't want energy drinks and granola bars for meals, you want home made potato cheese soup.

#6: You don't watch Sister Sister on Nick, you watch Tia & Tamira on Style.

#7: You stop wanting a bedroom like this: 

 

and start wanting one like this:

#8: You stop drinking vodka because you're bored and just wanna get drunk, and you start drinking a glass of wine with dinner because it tastes good with your pasta.

#9:  You start realizing the real people that matter and make your life a happier place.

#10: You're parents actually know quite a bit!

Professional? Puh-lease!

My rant for the day:

There has been a lot of talk on FB lately  about all of the "so called 'professional' photographers" and I can't help but get a little annoyed with the topic.

Just to set the record straight, I may not have finished my photography schooling, but I have taken college courses on the subject. And in my personal opinion graduating from college with a degree in photography does not make you a "professional." You can't teach talent.

While I too get a little annoyed with 16-18 year olds with a nice camera and a pirated version of photoshop saying they have a photography business. It's not my place to judge. In the end clients can tell the difference between professional and amateur work. And one day these "professional" 16-18 year olds will be super confused by all of the legalities of having an LLC and setting up a tax license and such, but it's not my problem, because at the ripe old age of 22 I have already done these things. And by the way, I believe that those are a few steps you need in order to become a true professional and business owner.

I'm happy to say that with every shoot I learn a little and continue to get better. But I also don't need you catty girls with too many opinions to tell me that I don't know what I'm doing.

Thank you.